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Liam Morgan
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I apologize for not having updated sooner, there's no excuse for that. Since my last journal, Halloween, Thanksgiving, Christmas and the New Year have all come and in most cases gone. I'll admit I had hoped that in general 2015 would be a good year, but things aren't looking so good.

My job search began late because I was lazy, and I had other things on my mind, and since July I've been searching, with no luck. I'd signed on with two placement firms that have tried lining me up with different studios in the area, and none of them have taken an interest in my work. Now that it's 2015 and six months after my graduation without a job, it's at a point where each passing day that I don't have a job is like a wasted day, and with it come plenty of doubts that I'll be able to make the cut anywhere at this rate. If no one will hire me as a designer, then what do I do instead?

In other news, a recent development has made me question a lot about myself, both physically, and mentally. It's frigtening to realize that you don't match up to the qualities of others. When it's your friend, it's a bittersweet loss, but when it's a rival, it's a crushing blow. The preconceived notions we have of ourselves can be shattered so quickly, and seeing that the things that you are and that you have do not match to the others who may seek to compare or out-do you are overwhelming, it's something that may hurt you in ways you might not have expected...

I can see that I'm not smart, that creatively and intellectually I am lacking, that in morals and vigilance I am wanting, and that in my body I am weak in so many ways. In that trifecta of inadequacy it's hard to think that I can be what I need to be for who needs me, and who might need me the most...

So for 2015, in less than a day I feel that I've been rudely slapped in the head. There's so much that I can't do and so much that I don't have that I should. It's a tired cliche to question one's life choices on the internet, or to curse life's little curses on us all in a way that we seek attention, but again it's the kind of pain that one seeks solace in others for, and I want to thank you all who've read this, thank you for letting me indulge in my self-pity. 

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:iconmrscp:
MrSCP Featured By Owner Mar 3, 2015
hey, could you do my oc's fallen house of woe?
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Cobalt180 Featured By Owner Mar 3, 2015  Student General Artist
I'm afraid I'm not taking requests at the moment, sorry.
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1-k-0 Featured By Owner Aug 1, 2014  Professional Digital Artist
Thanks for the fav!
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Cobalt180 Featured By Owner Aug 1, 2014  Student General Artist
You're very welcome!
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etate Featured By Owner Jun 5, 2014  Professional Digital Artist
Thanks for the watch!!
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Cobalt180 Featured By Owner Jun 5, 2014  Student General Artist
You're welcome!
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basakward Featured By Owner May 27, 2014  Professional Filmographer
Thanks for watching!  Sorry it has taken me this long to say so.
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Cobalt180 Featured By Owner May 27, 2014  Student General Artist
Thank you! I didn't mind, really, seeing how much effort goes into your work, I'm actually surprised you responded at all!

Your work is fantastic, I've showed quite a few people the "God Forgot Me" animation you did a while back, and everyone who saw it absolutely loved it!
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basakward Featured By Owner May 28, 2014  Professional Filmographer
Awesome! Thank you for sharing my work with your friends! I love hearing that.
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ODST934 Featured By Owner May 4, 2014  Hobbyist General Artist
Hello! ^^
HAPPY BIRTHDAY! :cake::party:
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